As you may have noticed, the past month has been pretty quiet around here. In fact, the past year’s post frequency has been fairly irregular. Somewhere between the overtime, the passion I had for my job and the other things I needed to wedge into my schedule, I lost myself.
When I started my sick leave from Frima, I thought I would recover fast. I had noticed the signs early, and stopped before the burnout really settled in. Nevertheless, it took me longer than I thought to sort out the storm in my head, and be able to concentrate on writing again. I’ve been gradually re-integrating it into my life, along with cooking, training, and smaller activities I forgot I liked.
I was scheduled to go back to work tomorrow. However, due to restructuration, my position at Frima no longer exists. I thought long and hard about the alternatives they offered me. In the end, I came to the conclusion that the new positions at Frima were simple, handy, familiar options, but that none of them was the right one; my heart beat faster when I thought about doing something else, even a blurry, undefined, risky “else.”
That was me – the “me” I lost, the “me” I missed – pushing through.
So I jumped into the unknown… well… less known. *laughs*
I don’t know what will happen next, and it’s exciting! Will I look for a job here in Quebec or on the other side of the globe? Will a job find me instead? Do I want to put a few ads here, format one of my stories into an ebook and try to make writing my full time job?
I’m only certain about three things:
- I feel stronger, lighter and more passionate today than I’ve felt in quite some time.
- Strings of Retaliation resumes this week along with my regular posting and writing tips I’ve been meaning to write for a while.
- Whatever my next professional step is, I’m not taking it if it isn’t the right one, one that is “me” and that I can be committed to and passionate about.
To the friendly coworkers I left behind, I’ll miss you and wish you the best.
To my regular readers, I’m sorry I’ve been away and I can’t wait to interact with you again.
To the endless possibilities of life, we should grab a cup of coffee and chat. 😉